awkward almost sex...

Okay, so I have this friend, let's call him J. And this dude is like my brother. He's one of my best friends and he's just a great dude. But like I said. He's like my brother. Soooooo he texts me at like 1am like come over and not thinking anything of the time I said okay I haven't seen you in forever let hang out. And my roommate wanted to go to her moms for a little while too and J and her mom are neighbors. So I was like yeah dude I'll come over. I got there and his two buddies were passed out drunk. And he was pretty drunk too. I mean he must've been drunk because this is a good Christian guy who constantly tries to be the best person he can and he would never usually do this. But he was trying to have sex with me. Like it was so weird. He's like "just let whatever happens happen" and other shit. And I was like "dude are you okay? This is not you talking. We've never had any interest in eachother like this ever before. And you're drunk as fuck dude. You're gonna regret if anything happens." He's like "no im not that drunk anymore I'm fine. I want this. You can't say you've never thought about it" and I was like "honestly I've never thought of you this way. You've always been my brother and you've told me I'm like your sister. This is not you at all J" and I kept talking to him and shit and he was drunk and in his feelings about his ex because the day before was her birthday and shit. It was super fucking weird. Like he was grabbing my ass and had his hand down my shirt and kissing my neck. I still can't believe it 😳. If it was anyone else I would've told him to fuck off and I would have left but this guy is probably my best guy friend I've ever had. So I stayed and talked to him and made sure he was okay. Because like I said earlier. He was not himself. I texted him the next day and asked him if he was okay and he told me he doesn't remember much of what happened but he knows enough and he just kept apologizing.