dr issue rant ):

Let me start off with I have never had good experiences with drs listening to me. When I was younger I almost died from a unknown virus in my chest and it started off with dr not listening to and saying I was fine and over reacting... my dad took me to 3 other dr before one decided to do something and it was almost to late. Thankfully god was in my side and I got lucky... ever sense then it's been really hard and especially with this pregnancy. My dr keeps telling me one thing and doing another I'm 1 cm and 80% effaced and I found that out cause I had to go to the hospital and get checked because he wouldn't do it... today he said he'd check me and so I go in and he tells me he's not checking me for dilations again!!! I'm 36 weeks, almost 37 weeks! And he predicts that my baby will be here next week or by the end of this week and he can't even check me???? I haven't seen my kid sense I was 16 weeks pregnant so it scares me, and makes me feel like my opinion or concerns don't matter. But he had nooooo problem looking at the rash on my boobs today... I'm so over this all.