the positive tests are avoiding me 😑😥

I'm on cycle day 44 now. 5 days since AF was meant too show her face! No show yet still testing negative😑. Each negative test makes me feel sooo crap😣. I have bloating cramps super sore/achey boobs I've had nausea constant for the past 2 days. I'm testing again in the morning but just wondering how long in it was till others got a positive result... I'm just hoping that second line is taking a long time too show😬🙏🏼.