Testing tomorrow

So I just got out of an emotionally abusive relationship about 2 weeks ago (Dec 22). The last time we had unprotected sex was early December. I'm now sitting on a 54 day cycle with irregular periods but never a cycle this long. I had some light brownish spotting about a week ago and one day of pinkish spotting a few days after that, other than that, absolutely NO signs of AF, other than my boobs occasionally being sore. I haven't been TTC for the past month and a half because I came to the realization how manipulative and threatening my partner was, but I make dumb choices and still had sex with him until I was able to leave the relationship safely. I'm stressed and definitely don't want to have a baby with him, but can't afford an abortion and don't know if I'll ever have a chance to have kids again if I am pregnant (due to PCOS). Anybody have any advice to ease the nerves?