Sex With Ex From Prison

Hey guys , I'm 18 I've been talking to this guy for about 5 years now , i know i was a bit young but hey in life you make mistakes , he's now 22 and his whole lifestyle is crazy , he just finished a 1 and a half year sentence, for something extremely crazy , when i was younger he treated me like crap , he never showed love , in my views he used me , he even got a daughter, he never gave me that real relationship feeling , he used my pass against me even put his hands on me until i bled . But through it all i still loved him , i know you'll say I'm stupid or what ever but once you see potential in someone no matter how much you wanna hate that person you can never resist them , i hated him , he runined my life , I disrespected my family and myself for him , i ended up leaving the country because my life was all messed up , and he ended up coming to the county i was in *jamaica* as soon as he texted me i went straight to where he was , that night was the worst night of my life what him and his brothers did to me , it was horrifying, out of all people i would never expect that from him . I ended up not hearing from him until the other day , he texted me out of the blues , now that I'm older I replied maturely and calm , he was explaining how much he changed , and certain things he has changed about himself, he's a guy that's full of money and is not afraid of showing the world , I've watched him for a while and noticed he has drop certain attitude so I decided we meet up and talk , i got a hotel room for the day , and before going in he started telling me how much I've gotten beautiful because he haven't seen me in years and I got older , we sat down in the room , he started hugging me , I resist him and started crying telling how much he hurt me and distroyed my life , he held me looked in my eyes and explained how much he's sorry and how much he loves me , over the 5 years we talk it was the first time i ever felt like he meant it and the first he told me i was beautiful, he kissed me and wiped my tears , long story short we ended up having sex , bed , coach , bathroom sink , office table, shower ... Everywhere . sex was amazing but we used no condom and he came in me about five times , he looks at me and tells me how sexy i am and how much he loves me while he's kissing me and stroking , he even posted me on his page as his forever boo , which he never did before , I'm so confued and i do not know whether I'm making the wrong choice by going back to him , but everything changed now , I honestly feel his love and feel the change I finally feel needed but i still hold back on my emotions because I'm afraid to get hurt again 😔