Just emotional and need to vent.

We had a Chemical pregnancy last month. It sucked. We were going to ttc again, no big deal, right? Wrong. Now, since the third of Jan, I am on heart meds to slow my heart down and relieve palpitations. I have had two separate opinions on ttc while on this new medicine, one from a cardiologist nurse and one from a pharmacist,.. one saying it shouldn't be a big deal, and one saying talk to my Dr first.

It was hard enough losing a baby, even if it was a chemical. But now seeing people on facebook posting they are pregnant and of their ultrasounds and my brother in law is having a baby too, and now I'm getting told this medicine isn't the first option for a pregnant woman. It's Lopressor. It's simply so my heart will slow down and act right. And all because of that, I may not be able to ttc for a while.

I'm sorry y'all, I just get emotional about all this. We just want baby #2 and things just aren't going right.. I know God has his plan.. but I'm just emotional.