don't want my newborn? ppd?

I've felt terrible about this for weeks. Now I don't feel anything anymore. I don't want her. I cried over this endlessly but now I can say it without crying. I don't feel anything for her or her dad. I want them gone. I wish I could feel some remorse for my thoughts but I'm not. Could this be ppd? The only way I can see myself being happy again is without them, as odd as that sounds. I feel like a horrible person but I can't change my mind about how I feel. Did anyone experience this? I don't feel sick at all, i don't feel anything really. Btw she was planned. I loved her until I gave birth to her. 
Ps I would never hurt her. I've been planning on leaving them. My husband is so disrespectful and leaves it all up to me. Never what we planned as we wanted a child together not just me doing all the work and him carrying her for 5 minutes when he gets home from work. 

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