Alrighty yesterday I was a wreck. I'm the one who couldn't stop crying lol. I'm sitting in the middle of my bedroom floor, in the dark, sobbing. Although I am married, my pregnancy was unexpected and unplanned. We hadn't planned on having kids until after I graduated so about 2 more years. For the first time since I was four years old, I'm not going to be in school. Big change for me especially since I have always loved learning and school lol. Anyway my husband came home early and we started cleaning out things and getting ready to move out some bigger pieces of furniture that we were getting rid of to make room for baby. Honestly I felt like a lot of the stuff being gotten rid of was mine. (Not all the way true, but sort of. For good reason though lol). So this had me really going. The icing on the cake was finding out at 6:00 that we were for sure having company--it had been up in the air all day. At this point, in and uncontrollable mess. And that is is why I'm sitting alone, in the dark, on the floor sobbing. I was thinking about all these things that were changing-that I didn't ask for. I was wanting to be pregnant right now. Then the most awful thought popped into my head-I didn't even want my baby when he got here.