Feeling down..

So I've been trying to get my life started... I'm 19, I moved away from the people I love to find a job in the city, I have no vehicle, and I'm always depressed. I'm having no luck finding what I need to be stable and independent.. I never really had a stable parent and I've been house hopping since I was 14. You'd think being nearly on my own for 5 years I would have something figured out.. But it's not easy. I didn't have it super easy growing up and I hate relying on other people to take care of me yet that's all I can do right now.. is anyone else in this position? Any helpful words or thoughts please?

Ps. I have a bf who helps me with everything but lately he's been in his own world and I don't want him feeling like he has to take care of me like a child. He works a lot and like I said I moved to the city and he's still with his parents for temporary, he's 22 and has everything going.. I know I'm 19 but I hate not being at his level of independence bc then it would be easier on our relationship.