FTM Overload

My son is 3 weeks old today. The first week or so was so overwhelming and I'm pretty sure I had a meltdown everyday. Then these last few days it seems like we are more in rhythm and I don't wanna say routine but I was starting to feel confident in everything. Then today he had a cluster feeding episode and it has thrown everything out of whack. I feel as if he's a brand new baby again and I can't console him and know nothing about his signs or cues. When I don't know what's wrong I feel like I am losing as a mother. My husband is a firefighter and is returning to work this week. Working 24 hour shifts I will be a single mom on the days he works - throw that into my emotional hot mess. Just want there to be a time that everything I do doesn't feel like a complete guess.