my husband is so mean...

I hate to say that but I feel like he is... tonight I started talking to him about how our relationship is, and he flips on me and tells me to shut up because he's going to bed.. well this whole "shut up we aren't talking about it" thing has been going on for a long time... so I literally can't keep it together and start crying because I just feel so freaking alone and he just lays there and acts like everything is okay.... how do I do this... I thought he cared for me and that I was once special to him but now it's like he can't stand me.. he uses the excuse that he is apathetic but that's just a bunch of crap...I feel so lost