Dear othwr women

I'm sure where to begin. Just know since you've been in my life I've done nothing but hurt. Your flawless brown skin, you have the pefect set of lips... You know how martin use to brag on Gina. Your long natural hair not needing to pretend blows in the wind. You have no kids so of course you have the body of a goddess . not one area stretched or marked . your really an amazing girl. I guess that's why my husband fell for you. The temptation was to strong. Where did I go wrong. When did I open the door to the home we've built to allow another women to be invited in ? When don't I satisfy him why does he need you. When don't I listen why is he talking to you? You know all about me and I mean nothing to you. I hate you more like envy . all I do is compare my self to you. I'll never be you I could never be you. I'm just the boring house wife and mother of two. I'll neverbe 18 again . I hate you. You didn't tear my family apart. You destroyed me and my self esteem. And though it rakes two to tango you'd think you being a women you'd understand.now as i go down this road of recovery and trying to fix my marriage all I see is you. You haunt me in my sleep. I see you when he kisses me. When he caress my body all I imagine is yours. And how could I please him ever again when. He has had you. Look at you. Why would he even want me?he says you guys are done . how stupid of me to stay knowing weve all been here and I'm the one who continues to get fucked.just leave please. I know its just as much his fault as yours its just women to women why don't you get it. Why can't you leave my husband alone. My kids need their dad. They deserve a change to have a complete home . how selfish could you be . please just leave my husband alone. And I swear as ugly as it seems I pray for the day your madly in love . you marry your 12yr old sweat heart have two kids and think you have a perfect life. I pray the moment you get introduced to your YOU. Your heart shatters into a million pieces like mine did the second your presence was reveled.