baby shower I'll never get

Did everyone on here have their baby shower already? I'm 32 weeks already and haven't had one yet, I was planning one but it was canceled because my best friend got distracted with work and found out she's 2 months pregnant. We had a date set and a place but it just all got canceled. I still want one but I don't want to ask anyone to throw me one and I'd throw one myself but I have no money plus no friends to invite. Family members basically just judge everything so can't really expect them to do anything. I feel so guilty because I feel like I sound so stuck up, but I don't know what to do