Anyone else never got a positive with fmu?

I've been taking tests since 8dpo which of course I know it's super early. However I've noticed the only visible positives I've gotten are in the afternoon. Fmu and evening u always come up negative! I'm now only like 11dpo and I feel like a POAS addict LITERALLY! I'm getting so frustrated! My husband is even confused. I would be too if my wife showed me positive then negative tests for 3 days in a row smh! Af isn't due for over a week but I'm so ready to throw in the towel. I keep pretending I'm okay around him but I'm so sad. It makes me cry every time just knowing I'm going to go wipe soon and see that horrible bright red color smh!