strange

I'm still a virgin & I don't mind but at the same time it does bother me sometimes. I guess I feel weird about it since I'm already 20. I guess I never fully trusted a guy with my body before. Idk am I weird? I'm a hopeless romantic, I do want love at the same time. Love is difficult these days, & genuine connection is so rare. I don't like having feelings because I'm more vulnerable but I miss having someone on my mind all the time. Nothing is gray for me. I eighter fall really hard or don't really care at all.  Am I the only one that thinks like this?