Idk what to do.. 😔

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Today, she was on her way to go somewhere and I casually asked where she'd be. We live in an apartment so the maintense people are coming over on Friday. She got really defensive and had a harsh tone towards me. Of course I got upset. I told her how I felt when she treats me that way and she proceeded to tell me to follow my own advice. That's the thing.. she creates an attitude she thinks I have and then the attitude she thinks I had is now my attitude. If that makes sense. I'm always scared to talk to her because I'm afraid of her constantly scolding me for something I never intended to portray myself to be. Also what haunts me to this day is when she got upset at me to the point she placed my pillow over me and I barely could breathe, it happened a couple times, that was a few years ago.. I always have anxiety when it comes to me speaking with her because I'm scared of saying one little thing wrong.. I have a feeling that some of you may ask "why don't you just leave?" I ABSOLUTELY would but my family is holding me back from going to school. The town here has very little jobs. I've stayed here for almost two years trying to find one so I could be on my own. No luck. So as far as I know I'm stuck with my mother until something good comes along.

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Also my apologies for a long post. I just needed someone to listen. If you have any thoughts please do not hesitate. I love feedback and advice. Thank you.