I hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to vent

I've been ready to settle down since I was 20 years old. I've been faithful to the men I've been with but either they'll cheat, jump on me or just leave bc they're not ready. I'm so sick of having failed relationships. I'm too good to the men ive dated. I cater to them, keep the house clean, hot food no nagging bc I hate altercations. I may be pregnant right now and the man i love just decided that maybe he jumped the gun too soon. All to leave me alone, no phone calls nor text. This hurts extremely bad. I've been in bed the past 4 days just crying trying to understand what's going on. I'm so pissed and depressed all at the same time.