How to leave manipulative parents.

I have always been one of my moms only friends. Which was okay when I was younger until I grew up and started going to therapy to realize my mom was laying too much of a burden on me. When I say this, I still love my mom with all my heart. Her and my dad have had semi physical abuse issues raising us in the past. My mom more so now than my dad because my dad doesn't drink whiskey anymore. My mom likes to guilt trip me for not spending a lot of time with my family, for spending too much time at work/school/or with friends/boyfriend. She's even made me feel bad about getting accepted to college. I'm the first to go in my family. 

I've never had a decent relationship with my dad up until these past few years, and we still don't really connect like a father and daughter should. He's an alcoholic, workoholic, handyman, good-ol-boy, who we all suspect is cheating on my mom with our trailer park trash neighbor. 

I want to move out. I need to get away from this place before I leave for college. But I'm too scared of what it will do to them or what they will think of me. If I tell my parents I'm leaving, my dad will be sad but not too sad because we never really connected like he wanted us to. Mom will be furious and call me names and say I'm betraying her and that I must hate her and not love her. 

I have a little sister. She's a freshman. She wants me to leave, she knows it's best. She knows I love them. All of them. But I need to leave. 

I just need someone to point me in the right direction and give me some food for though or a push or... just anything really.