Lately I've been listening... RANT warning

Lately I've been listening to "I hate you, I love you" on repeat because it seems to have a significant place in my life with how I feel about a special person in my life. 
RANT TIME:: I've been having to disconnect from him for complicated reasons (as I want to continue to have a roof over my head). I'm also 17 weeks pregnant, possibly further if it's his kid which it could be, and my emotions are going crazy. I have no friends I see in person really and no human interaction besides those that live with me, as I have no car or license, only time I really leave house is to see dr or adoption agency or go grocery shopping. Which makes me feel further disconnected from the world not only him.