I truly need advice. I am truly heartbroken.

I have been married for a year and a half. Loving married life and enjoying every moment with my husband. We have had many ups and downs and numerous times he has tried to leave me because he wasnt happy. He was bored and i made him miserable because all i had to offer him was love, loyalty and compassion. Im a very sweet and emotional person. I just want to love and be loved. Thats what lifes all about, being a team. We had our first baby, a little boy, in January. He is about 6 weeks old. I had a very traumatic birth in my eyes, an unplanned c section after hours of induced labor due to pre-eclampsia. Our little boy is our joy and he is amazing we love him so much.

My husband has decided that he is filing for divorce. He says he doesnt love me, he never loved me and he doesnt care about me. The only reason he cares for my wellbeing is because our baby needs me, i am the primary care giver and I breast feed.

I am head over heels inlove with my husband. I always have been and I always will be. Hes always been my person.

I am devastated, heart broken, alone, miserable and wondering...why?

I am desperate to keep us together but my husband has decided that he cant stand me and thats all he can do to relieve us. He said we can co parent just fine and he will always come see the baby and spend time with him but we can not be together and never will again.

I literally have done nothing to deserve this. I am home all day every day with the baby, i worked until a month before my due date, i do anything he requests with no problem, im loyal and loving and quiet. I am a family person. I just want peace and love. I was never a huge talker or partier or anything. Kind of a home body due to depression. My husband also has severe depression and anxiety.

Theres so much more to this story but its to much to type all of our back story.

Basically, I am asking other women and even men how they dealt with divorce. Especially with a newborn or babies/children involved. I am no where near okay and emotionally, I dont know how im going to get through this. We currently still live together until my husband figures out what we are doing.

Please help my heart. 💔💔