why do we(I) do that??

Why test when you know it's likely too early? I am 11 dpo, I didn't plan to test this morning, I got up to pee between 3 & 4 am to pee and then up at 6 and think anything is going to show?! Really? Why did I even bother? Anyone else torture themselves? I have had symptoms for about 3 days and started worrying when my symptoms weren't as in my face this morning. Seriously. Ttc is a mind fuck!