Did I just really fuck up bad?

Ok so I need some advice. I did something a few days ago that is something I would never do. So I've been talking/seeing this guy for about 4-5months now. It went from almost boyfriend and girlfriend to friends but lovers possibly something more in the future to kinda sorta living with me to friends. Then we had sex onr day and had a huge blow up the next. Packed his shit and left took his two boys with him. But could not find a reason y he was leaving. Weve gonr at it for days. He's calling me everything u can imagine talking about fucking his new butch but always gets thus idea i his head that I think we're together and so I told him off too of course but still was trying to help him cuz that's just what I do. And it all changed cuz were both in our own fucked up situations. But I really have never felt like I do with hi.m and the passion and the sex is amazing.

But heres the issue. Since we were done I thought. Just friends maybe. I kinda slept with a really good friend of mine. And now the one before has actually moved in and we're getting along but as friends I think. I'm not sure cuz he's treating me like he did before. And honestly I'd do anything to get back in bed with him. And all this in a matter of days

But what if there was no other bitch he fucked. And I just slept with another guy. I mean we technically weren't together. . And idk if we will even be more than friends again. But if he does I want to. And I didnt want to hurt my friend and I've got a guilty concounce.

. Even worse I've been off my BC for about a month. And it's possible I could've gotten pregnant. I made sure to use a condom with my friend though just so I'd know. But Ugh

So if we're nothing more than friends no sex no problem right? But if he does want sex again then a problem? And what if I'm pregnant? I just feel so guilty and confused. And seriously it's killing me to see him here slept by his side today and idk if I can even touch him. But seriously I want him so bad. Ugh wtf I have never done something like this before. Idk....