BABY FEVER. PLEASE HELP!!!

I work at McDonald's because I'm a junior in high school. I'm graduating in December and moving into my great grandmothers old house with my 20 year old boyfriend of 3 years. (Yes, ever since the first week of freshman year) We will be paying 400 in rent a month including power and water . My boyfriend works at a papa johns. In NO WAY are we financially stable. We aren't even out on our own yet. 

All I've been thinking about is the beautiful babies we could have. How happy of a little family we could be. In time. Honestly? I know this is going to sound really stupid but I go to school with a lot of teen moms. They seem so happy. Some are crap moms like mine which makes me livid because they are also hard core involved in drugs around their babies. Others are really good moms who seem to have their act together. It just makes me wonder how I would be as a mom. I see all these little baby faces and think about how I can't wait to look in the little face of mine. I am even scared and worry about if I'll be able to make babies which makes me want to try even more.

I know I'm not the only one who has gotten baby fever at a young age. Please don't judge. I'm calling out all these people who have had baby fever. I need to know how to get over it.