was so scared

Currently 30 weeks- just got out of labor & delivery- everything was/ is fine w the baby but I was so scared! So last night, I went to dinner w my friends- my friend asked me if the baby moves a lot, I said oh yea she moves all the time, but when I started thinking about it , I realized she had been moving way less today. I tried to brush it off  and did notice her kicking later in the night. She NEVER lets me sleep on my right side in bed- she always kicks like crazy- well I fell asleep on my right side and woke up maybe 2-3 hrs later and realized she hadn't kicked me at all. I turned on my back and felt her kick once. I then fell back asleep and woke up in the am. When I woke up, I didn't feel her moving at all, I tried pressing on my belly, changing position- nothing. I tried using my Doppler but could not find her heart beat. She usually hates the Doppler and kicks a lot when I use it-but nothing. by this time I was already extremely anxious and crying!! I couldn't move, I couldn't think, I just broke down thinking my baby's dead. My husband was just calm saying everything is going to be okay which honestly wasn't helpful in that moment. I had him call my dr bc I couldn't  even talk. My dr said head to L&D. I couldn't even get dressed- my husband had to help me- I was just crying uncontrollably. It was the worst feeling ever!! This baby I love so much, I wouldn't get to meet, everything was going through my head- a funeral, returning her whole nursery, losing my first and only daughter/baby.