regretting abortion 😓

(I'm 20) I was in a weird relationship with this guy. We weren't dating but we saw each other all the time, kinda as if we were talking. We had sex during that time and I ended up getting pregnant even tho I had taken plan b, I was on the pill but I would always forget them.. I found out I was pregnant when I was around 5weeks. I told him and he immediately started thinking about abortion and I did too at first because I was scared but then I changed my mind and wanted to keep it, i told him about keeping the baby but he kept on arguing with me to have the abortion because we couldn't take care of a baby.. and then went on to tell me that we needed to work on our relationship first and then we could try for a baby even if we weren't financially stable.. me being stupid believed him and went and got the abortion.. he went with me the day I went to take the first pills at the clinic but never heard from him again... I see him at school but he just ignores and passes right by me as if he didn't know me.. it breaks my heart because I let my feelings for a guy influence my decision of getting an abortion, I really wanted to keep my baby and I still do. I feel like killing myself for killing my baby for some stupid guy.. not a day goes by where I don't think about my baby... if any of you ladies are considering abortion but only because a guy tells you to do it even when you don't want to have the abortion, don't do it. There will be ways for you to take care of the baby. Think of what you want first and dont let some guy make the decision for you.. It's been 7 months since I had my abortion and I regret it every single day.. I just want my baby back 😓😓💔