using dildo 10 weeks after birth ๐Ÿ†

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So I gave birth on the 13th January, I had a second degree tear and it's been hurting for weeks. At my follow up 6 week appointment I mentioned to my doctor that I still feel swollen although my stitches have dissolved. She asked where I feel the discomfort and I said it feels like it's more internal. After she examined me and claimed I've healed "beautifully" just I need to allow more time, I thought I'd give it some more weeks before trying my dildo.
As I don't have myself a man ๐Ÿ˜ ( but that's a complete other issue ) 
Anyway, yesterday i thought I'd try it out as my vibrator played such a big role already getting me "ready" for it. 
And how was it ? Uncomfortable. It felt stupid tight like I was a virgin again and it's mainly where the stitches once were. Once it was in me I didn't seek much pleasure, in fact I found myself pull it out and give up with it completely within a few "thrust" attempts. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜
I know this is abit detailed and what have you but it's annoying how it still feels sore and just uncomfortable. I feel like a virgin again. It's a good thing I don't have a man or he'd be disappointed that he wouldn't get any.
Is there anything I can do to help?