I feel like I love him more...also I'm insecure...and also just problems

   DISCALIMER: long post --- continue if you dare!

      Something I've been thinking about, is how I continually feel like I love him a lot more than he loves me. I don't know if I'm just thinking about it too much, or if maybe it's true. This month I'm not able to see him as much as I usually do, due to a class he's taking. And the space has given me time to realize that I've become that girl I've always feared becoming. I've become the girl who's unhappy when she's by herself, who's world revolves around a man, and who's anxiety makes me fear every second we're apart --- what if during this time he finds somebody better? It's been the first week of not seeing him as often, and I've realized that I feel like I've lost so much of myself during the time that we've been seeing each other. I'm lazy with my appearance, I don't have the same bounce in my step, and there's always an absence of my signature perfectly bright lipstick. These are things that I feel like I could strive to reclaim during this month that I'll have more time to myself. But that can't be the result of a healthy relationship, can it? 

Now onto the reasons why I feel like I love him more than he loves me: I tend to be an expressive person when it comes to my words so I love to tell him how much he means to me, and he used to do the same. Now if I say "Goodnight My Love, I can't wait to see you. I miss you" I get back a message back that just says "Goodnight My Baby". Doesn't he want to see me too? Sometimes I call him out on it, and then he'll say "of course I want to see you too" but by that point it feels forced to me. I know that now he has to focus on his school and his mind may be other places, but it's been like that for a while. I want to give him everything to make him happy, but I want to be happy also. I think my problem may be that I've become insecure with myself, I want to know that I mean as much to him as he means to me, and I want to hear it often. I'm afraid of losing him more than anything. 

I feel like the point of this blog is starting to get lost so I just want to wrap up with A) I don't feel like I'm getting as much love out the relationship as I'm putting into it, and it's getting a little tiring. However I'm giving what I'm comfortable with, any less and I'd be scared he'd lose interest with me and find someone better --- I'm insecure. I feel this way mostly when we're texting and not when we're together; I know it's hard to gauge how people are feeling though a text. Most of this next month will be digital communication Vs. face-to-face, and I don't want to feel lonely the whole time. B) I feel like through spending so much time with him I've began to lose pieces of myself, so maybe this time will be good to rediscover myself. C) I have so many feelings that I want to get out, should I tell him how I feel about all of this? 

If you made it, thank you for reading. I'm not sure if I'm making complete sense, but I tried my best to get what's in my head typed out. I just want thoughts, if you have any. 

I miss him, but he hasn't said he misses me too.