heart break 💔

Heart break is probably the hardest thing to go through. Especially since you were the first serious relationship that I've ever been in. Maybe that's why this hurts more than anything. We have a beautiful 10 month old baby boy and are due to have another baby next week. I know life with me isn't easy, that's why I don't blame you. I don't blame you for wanting to leave me. You are still going to be there for our kids and we are still going to do things as a family for their sake. I appreciate that. I didn't expect to fall in love with you in the first place, but I did. Even though every other relationship before you I just took as a joke, but not what I had with you. Which is why this is hurting so much. A part of me is just hopping that some time down the line you will change your mind. That's false hope unfortunently. Now I need to wait these last two weeks to have our baby. Alone. Alone in my own bed. Alone to think. Cry. God this hurts so much. You purposes to me not only two months ago, but I get it, I was just too much. Now I'm 20 and basically a single mom with two kids.