Idk what else to doo... 😭😭

Hey ladies ,

Me and my bd have been together for 5 yrs this month. We have a 7 month old little boy.

Well i suffer from painful sex , i was on depo , than the patch than a monthly pill , a 3 month pill than stopped it to have a baby went bck on a monthly pill that has NO HOREMONES.

My sex drive is nonexistent i been to the dr before they didnt do anything ab it.. i been to the dr ab painful sex i have a appt nxt month for it.. i tried 3x to have sex it hurt so bad i cried sobbed actually its putting a tole on my relationship... i do other things so my bf can get off bj anal etc. Hes getting to the point those aren't making him get off. I tried sex drive pills , pictures etc nothing.. hes became so hatefuk twds me that hes bringing up shit from the past that happened (he worked nights and he wouldn't listen to me when i said i felt alone i took care of his kids by myself every night they never listened to me his son has adhd so he was off the wall.. so all i did was talk to a guy from my old job. We flirted a little which IK IT WASNT RIGHT i still feel horrible) everytime i dnt give him sex or what he wants he throws it in my face... i just went bck to work after having the baby. He works 3 days a wk 14 hr days 4am-630pm. I make sure the house is clean the kids are taken care off fed bathed etc ( when his kids are with us ) while taking care of our 7 month old ..i never ask for help at all.. i never ask him to get up with the baby i NEVER ask him to feed the baby. Only time i Ever ask is if i need to shower. He offers every now and than he hasnt gotten up with the baby in 4 months..

He was wide awake playing his video game baby was crying in his crib i was alseep .. guess who got him.. me!

Im the one who feeds bathes changes him gets him dressed plays with him etc..

He said to me the other day that im always tired and he dnt understand how im so tired being the baby sleeps late... it's like seriously?!. I clean everyday almost

I clean the 2 bathrooms

The dishes the dining and living room

The 3 rooms

I mop sweap dust

Straighten up the table the shoes and organize things

I just changed all our clothes from winter to spring/summer (mine his and his 2 kids)

Im the one who plans his kids clothes packs

There snacks etc etc.

I asked him today and yesterday while im at wrk can u plz fold the laundry and do the dishes ..none was done i came home after working both days and picked up the mess

Did dishes folded 3 baskets of laundry (our dryer broke so we just got a new one) tomorrow i have off we work opposite i work when he has off and he works when i have off so tomorrow we both have off i wanted to get some food and just spend time together and now he wants to clean tm... like i wanted to just spend time together... he bitched at me said everything is ab me. What i want never him :( he tells me everyday hes horny to fuck him to go down on him so on and so fourth

Its alot on me taking care off the baby pretty much on my own , working than coming home and taking the baby.

I constantly have to remind him to do things

Like call in his pills

Call his dr

Call in his sons adhd pills

Call his sons dentist

Write his sons teacher a note ab holding him bck

Waking him up to put the kids on the bus (tells me i should just get up being im up when i was just up to feed the baby and was up 4 hrs prior to that and 3 hrs prior to that ...hes teething).

He drinks beer once a wk i wake up and clean his beer bottles up , pick up his clothes off the floor. Idk what to do anymore im so drained im physically mentally and emotionally exhausted... heres a few things he said to me.

1..and missed it. our version of sex is all about you juts like everything else is

2..ill clean the house and well do what you wanna do tomorrow dont worry

3..im so sick of caring you sure as hell dont

4..most guys dont even touch the fucking house i clean every week.

5..you clean about once a week like me

If were counting just doing the dishes then i clean 4 times a week

He dont clean once a week there has been times he hasnt touched a thing for over a wk..

Advice ? Plz no bashing.. 😭😢