does it get easier...........

9 months ago I lost our first baby @ 2 months. Our first baby after trying for 4 years and in a blink baby was gone. It was my birthday yesterday turned 29 and all I felt was so much heart break and could help but cry all day in hiding. Our baby would have been born this month maybe even this week....... i can't stop my self from the tears and the rip in my heart. My husband try so dam hard to make me enjoy the day but all I wanted to do was to go hide and cry. No I'm officially 29 and everyone is giving me all the dam talk about I'm getting old and I should start my family but little that they know I'm mourning over the lost of our miscarriage. Does the pain ever go away??