Trying to not be jealous

So today was my best friends gender reveal day. Her life has always been perfect. She is the luckiest person in the world and has gotten everything she has always wanted. She got pregnant in one cycle and has always wanted a little girl. And today she told us all she is having a girl. I knew it, because she always gets what she wants. I envy her in every way. I would love to have a baby girl and it would be that easy for me....I think I did a good job being happy for her but it's been a hard day. And then you always get asked...when are you having a baby?! 😒 we are the last out of all our friends and family to have a baby so people automatically assume we are "next". I am really hoping we are next, but I won't tell anyone that. I just keep saying we are not ready yet and are not trying, even tho we are. Ok rant over.... 🙁