20th Birthday

So today I turned 20. When I was 18 I was hospitalized for severe depression. I tried to start college and had to withdrawal from my semester. I've tried twice. Now this summer I'm taking one class. Today has probably been one of the scariest days of my life- I'm 20 and I have nothing to show for it. In high school, I had straight A's and dual enrollment. I'm 20 now!!!! I feel like a failure.