honest just a vent session

So I've had a horrible day and night. So today started with my parents arguing. Then I get to school and I didn't have time to eat so I was lucky enough to get a snack from my friend. But the guy that got mad and upset cause I haven't liked him for four years and that I don't open up to him. And he made me feel like crap and I started to shut down then in second hour my bf broke down begged me to ask my parents that have been arguing to stay the night I even cleared it with her mom too and made a plan then at lunch the lunch lady wouldn't give me food and I gave her money.... and I was nervous all day about the guy I really like saying I love you that day and I also had a game that I honestly was looking forward to and it got cancelled then I come home and it was good till I posted something that made everyone Dm me and ask who it was for and they were all guys that like me and one was Gavin and he called me a slut and a player and a hoe and that I always have to be with a guy and he tells me not to trust anyone but him and I blocked him But I'm always super worried about what ppl think of me and during volleyball season this happened to when I was friends with a guy and it effected me so bad I did this I know I shouldn't of and I'm glad I met a few ppl to get me through that but this time I felt how I did and it sucked