blessed mama! 😊😊😊

I have honestly been so blessed during my pregnancy. I usually have lots of health problems and mad anxiety and depression. I had so much morning sickness in the first trimester and now I look at it like my body was purging all of the sicknesses. My anxiety is still here and I still have moments where I feel my depression coming back but I just remind myself of the little miracle on the way. I smoked weed to help with my morning sickness and I used to smoke weed to cope with my problems but after my morning sickness was gone I told myself I had to quit because I didn't want to risk anything. When my anxiety is really bad I go for a walk, take deep breaths, rub my belly, and tell myself it's our lil family against the world and we can do anything we put our minds to! I like to paint, sing, and dance. I love that I've found ways to cope without smoking. I'm in no way judging anyone who does smoke to cope because I understand. I'm just sharing how I feel because I never thought I'd be able to quit. As someone who has been smoking for years to help with my scoliosis and other mental health issues I was honestly terrified that I would become an extreme nervous wreck and feel like I did before I smoked and fall into a depression. Meditation has helped a lot with centering myself and letting the universe show me the way! I have never been healthier in my whole life than during this pregnancy! I usually get really sick all the time (especially in the winter) but I haven't been sick once these past 9 months. Praying and hoping this strength will follow me into motherhood so I can be the best mom I can possibly be! 😊❤