My Dearest Riley

I spent countless hours over the last 13 weeks wondering who you would be and if I would be a good mom. I worried if I made the right choices. I tried to protect you and do everything I could for you. I cried because I thought I wasn't ready to be a mom and cried thinking that I the choices I made were going to screw you up somewhere along the line. I knew I wanted what was best and I was scared I wouldn't love you when you came but now that you're gone all I want is for you to come back. I always called you my little jelly bean but now that you're gone I wanted you to have a proper name. It was hard to pick a name because I didn't know if I lost my son or my daughter. I finally decided you will forever be known as Riley. Rest In Peace my little angel. I will never forget you and never stop loving you.