Any one else pregnant and single?

I'm Married But We Don't Live Together As Of October 4th Our Last Anniversary. I caught him in lie after lie. Different women in his phone. I caught him with different women. One was stripping for him. I feel so dumb. I still took him back. I'm having our 1st son together we have 2 girls together. From him cheating he has another son and I had a son cuz we broke up for 5 yrs. Why do I love him and why is it so hard to let go? He treats me like shit. I have been good to him.arried 6 yrs. I just don't get it. I'm the one who filed divorce and I wanna go thru with it. I'm just so lonely sad miserable. Why does the treat me so bad? I just don't f n get it. I'm more pissed than anything. Anyone can relate?

Me and him