have you ever...

Have you ever been in love with someone and they hurt you so bad over and over again (cheating, abuse, manipulation, continuous let downs etc)  that you start to feel different about them...yet you stay. And once they finally get it or try to fix their issues in fear of loosing you, you aren't sure if you are fed up or want to put anymore energy into it... yet you don't want to give up . So you try, try to fall back in love with this person... the one you used to give your all to, the one you put all your trust in to love and shield you from all harm when really you just needed shielding from them...yet you stay and fight...even when they don't deserve it. Have you ever ? Because that's where I am. Stuck between love and hate... fight or flight... forgive or forget . Just stuck . Numb . And confused .