Autism, I'm so worried

Because I have ASD automatically my child has a 50/50 shot of inheriting it from me. 

I found out I'm having a boy, boys are 5x more likely to have Autism then girls. 

I just spent 4 days in the hospital trying to get preterm labor and contractions under control. Premature babies are more likely to have ASD. I'm barely 30 weeks now. 

Odds just aren't in our favor. 

I know how hard it is to grow up being on the spectrum, the bullying, and every ones general lack of understanding. I will love my Son unconditionally no matter what, he will always have my support, Autistic or not. But I already feel so guilty. I got bullied so much growing up I tried to commit suicide by age 11. What if my son ends up like this, how can I live with myself if my child ever feels the way I did growing up because of having ASD. I feel almost irresponsible like I shouldn't ever be a mom, I don't deserve to be a mom. I'm potentially setting my kid up to have a hard life. I just needed to vent because my husband doesn't get why I feel so guilty and I just feel like a piece of shit.