Frustrated, so frustrated I could scream.

So I have PCOS and endometriosis. I have been trying with my husband for nearly two years. In the U.K. you have to be trying for a year before you get any medical help. So we have been put forward for IVF as well as having some drugs to help things naturally, so I have been taking letrozole. So I knew I wouldn't have enough tablets to take for when my next period decided to show up as having PCOS your cycle can surprise you. I have done as long as 48 days and have had also 28, 30 day cycles. My consultant decided to ignore my 1st call when I asked for more tablets up until the point where my husband had to phone as I was in tears as they refused to give me more medication as we are on the ivf route this only took 4 weeks for them to finally listen to us. So turns out we had our ivf chat signed all out papers for my period to arrive the next day and I thought great I can finally start my journey and get somewhere I don't need the consultant refusing me my medication I can have my treatment finally, only to have them refuse me as they are full this month. I am sure some of you ladies have felt the frustration I do and the fact that all this process is so out of our control and sometimes the people who you think are there to help you have infact scupperred your chances for a month, which these months for me and husband are still such a precious time for us to still try naturally but now I have no medication and no ivf chance. My journey so far has been so tough and full of people in the health industry that don't actually care because they are so over worked, we have had 2 hour delays for appointments constultants that look like they could fall asleep whilst talking to you. I have had medication missed like metformin I should take and not even perscribed to me I had to request it after my own research, and in the meantime all my friends and family fall pregnant naturally around me. People telling me to relax and be positive when all I want to do right now is stay under my duvet and cry. Positivity and motherhood never felt so far away. 

I am sorry if some of this doesn't make sense I just feel so full of sadness I needed to type to get it all out.