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my story is a long a one.

My story is long, but maybe it will help some of you decipher if you were sexually abused or assaulted.

When I was a young my father was emotional and verbally abusive, to top things off he would Group and touch me sexually when my mother was both around. When I was about 14 my dad was in trouble with the police for downloading illegal child porn and embezzlement. Unfortunately the court could not find enough evidence against him to prosecute him, so he walked away a free man.

At that time my mom had her new boyfriend and his friend living in our home to help pay rent. One morning my mom and her boyfriend had to leave because some men broke her bf arm because of a hate crime and jumped him because of his skin. Color. I was home alone babysitter however my mom boyfriends, friend was home. As I was walking back to my room he ambushed me with his knife into my moms bedroom. Held me down and kissed me and proceeded to take off his pants. All I could do was lay there scared with tears running down my face. While he held the knife by my side rubbing against me. My 3 yrs old brother walked in and stopped him dead in his tracks and told me I will kill you if you say a word. Because I had to live with him I was his toy it happen on more than one occasion when ever he had a chance.

The when I was 20 I had went out to the university here to play cards and have some drinks with a friend and 2 of her friends. After two drinks in I found my self to having very hard time. The next thing I know I was being carried down a long white hall then I was placed on a bed. I could not move, or speak but I was conscious enough to know what happened to me. I remember my pants being taken off and him moving my head around forcing my to my mouth on his nasty penis. Which ended up causing me to throw up on him. He left me in my puddle of vomit for the whole night and put in the back on his car the next morning and left me at my friends front door.