So scared of labour! 😣

I'm 36+2 with baby number 4 and I'm terrified of labour! With my last baby I was that terrified I wasn't even excited in the end. I was in denial when labour started! I didn't tell hubby for two hours in the hope that it was a false alarm. I'm so incredibly anxious. That pain is horrible. Part of me wants to opt out of the birthing center this time and go to hospital just so I can get the epidural!😔😲 but I know my labours are probably too quick for that anyway. Anyone have any advice? Or any natural labour coping/preperation techniques?

Sooooo scared 😭😭😭