Sick of masturbating!!!

I havent gotten off on my husband in months. For me, those are the best orgasms. He either finishes too quickly or I am just not into it enough to get off. Today I would have been into enough to get off, but he kept ripping ass and ruining the moment and then got upset when I wasn't all that into it and couldn't get off. But I finished myself off anyway and it just wasn't a good orgasm and I'm just really sick of masturbating!! 😐😞