tokophobia fear of getting pregnant

I have this 🤦🏻‍♀️ and it's not like "omg I'm a teenager I can't get pregnant it would him everything" it's more like "I never ever ever want to get pregnant. Ever" the whole thing scares me. I saw my mom give birth and everything that came after that. I won't go into details but I just like lost my mind seeing her in all that pain. And I keep wondering what if something goes wrong and I die or they cut me up or the baby dies. So many reasons to not get pregnant. My plan is to have a surrogate one day or adopt. 
Anyone else have this fear?