depression

I have the best boyfriend ever but I have a disease. I am clinically diagnosed with Sex and Love Addiction and it seems I can't get any better I try so hard but my issues constantly creep back up on me. And it hurts so bad to know I can't be normal. And it causes so many issues with me mentally. I can't function properly without attention and sexual contact. I need it and it's awful and some days I just wish I wasn't here anymore because it would be better for everyone involved. I am seriously depressed and frustrated and tired of being tired all the time and sad all the time.