tough topic

My daughter is 9 months old now and when she was first born I never had any expectations of the weighty falling off fast or anything but now she's almost a year old and I haven't shed any of my pregnancy weight off and I've done everything. Breastfed, worked out, ate healthy, drank nothing but water etc. but I'm gaining weight. I'm honestly so depressed and I'm not sure if it's Postpartum depression but I hate my body and I just want to love it but when I look at myself, or I try on clothes I just cry because they never fit and it's not like I can just go out and buy a whole new wardrobe lol lets be real. I was wondering if any other mommies struggle/ struggled with the same problem I have. It's even hard for me to go out in public with out having a panic attack especially when I walk my a mirror or window and see myself. I was 140 before I got pregnant, 190 when I had her and now I'm 200 and it's just so depressing since it's summer time and I can't wear a bikini like I'm used to.