I'm so tired of TTC.

I am feeling so out of it this month... and I'm only on CD7. I have no desire to take my temp in the morning, I haven't ordered my opk's yet, I'm not checking Glow as often as I did, and I could care less about my CM. I don't know what's wrong with me. I guess after 3.5 years, I'm just done. I even had hormone bloodwork done last Thursday and I just don't feel any excitement. I guess it's because I haven't received the results yet and maybe I'm just thinking it's because the news is bad and I'll never conceive? I don't know... feeling so discouraged this month. Just had to get it all out out of my head...