+20lbs in a month 😔 Fitness buddies?

Hi everyone! (1st time posting)

I'm pretty self conscious of my body, and have depression with a touch of anxiety. These do not mix well. 😕

This past year has been turbulent for my mental health. I was hospitalized in November and still trying to get back to "my old self". Part of it was due to stress at home. 😔

I'm 5'5" and before November, my normal weight was 165lbs. Last month I gained 10 pounds. Then my mental health took a nosedive...and I binged. Now I weigh 193lbs. This is the heaviest I have ever been my whole life. 😯

I want to change for the better. I know what I need to do, but finding the motivation and energy isn't easy. I always wanted a fitness/support group, just too shy to ask. 😶

I'm the one in olive green (2017) and the one in silver-black (2015). Pardon the quality~