Feeling blue after chemical pregnancy

Last month we got our much hoped for BFP at 10 dpo, 5 cycles after hubs VR. We had positive tests for three days and were completely over the moon.

Day four I just knew something wasn't right as my symptoms felt like they were subsiding and later that day we got a bfn!

At 17 dpo I started to bleed fairly heavily and knew for sure everything was all over.

Fast forward to today and what should be my second day of my fertile window and I just can't get my head in the game!! I'm completely just going through the motions with absolutely no hope that there is going to be a positive outcome at the end of this cycle.

My friend said that she thinks maybe I could have done with a month off to do some emotional healing but I feel as if we don't have the luxury of time because of the risk of scar tissue forming and reblocking the reversal site.

Sorry for the vent xx