Week 20 day 2 just a tiny blog how I been

I woke up today feeling happy for once and not moody☺ I feel like being nice for some ungodly reason😐 but then when I think of it I'm not really a people's person I'm a homie person just sit around and watch movies 😂at least this pregnancy is bringing out the good side of me😇 even though I have to see the doctor more because I have severe depression and suicidal attempts and thoughts 😑I had this before my pregnancy😢 it's gotten better over the 20 weeks😃 but we still have to monitor it and I don't mind that one bit cuz it's for my child and my own protection and health😃😃 although I do have to say the normal anxiety that comes with my depression has gone down little to none😊 which is good I have extreme anxiety😑 hopefully it stays like this forever😂😂😊😍👶🍼