I am disgusting....

Ladies.... I need your help please. Ever since I was a little girl I would watch beastiality sex because my mind set was "it's not real sex or porn". I honestly didn't understand it, I just liked to watch it to get turned one and get off when I was younger. It really started when my cousin showed me how her dog licked her vag and then I let him lick mine and realized it felt good and it got worse after that. I became very into it. Keep in mind I was like 7-8 and didn't understand. Now that I am older I do understand and I do not participate in it, but I still like watching it. Just normal porn no longer gets me off. I feel disgusting about myself and would like some help & advice on how to stop. I would really appreciate if you dont call me names because I already know how gross I am for liking this and would just like help on how to stop. Thanks in advance.